Things, yet so much more

I am in the oddest mood today, maybe it has something to do with the fact that I am actually thinking about what is coming up in the near future. My graduation and Jakob going back to school. Things have been kind of sticky lately because of school. It feels odd that I am actually finished with everything. It took me about 5 years, but I finished. I've never been one that has liked academia. I like learning, not being taught. I know that sounds odd, but let me see if I can explain. For me, there is a big difference between learning something and being taught something. I love learning about things and exploring and finding things out for myself. When I'm taught, it seems like I have to first listen, and then go out and learn. I know it might seem backwards, but I guess I just like skipping one step. Plus, I've never been one for taking tests. I can study and study and study and the minute I have the test on the desk in front of me, my mind doesn't seem to want to work anymore. I don't know if it is the pressure of the test or what, but I just can never seem to get my mind to work like that. I have no problem writing tests and if I had unlimited time or have the use of other material, then I'm a bit better. I guess I'm just happy that I don't have more schooling--at least for the present time.

I really don't mind working. In some cases I'd rather be working than going to a class. Now, to be fair, I have had some really enjoyable classes and that started me looking at somethings that I've never looked at before, but I prefer to work. I have no problem working. Maybe that will all change when I have to work full-time and if I can't find something that I like, but I try to find something that I like in what I do.

I, again, am a theatre widow. I knew what I was getting myself into when I married Jakob, but it seems like when I get a few moments with him when he's not in a show, he's off again doing another show. Don't get me wrong, I love the fact that he is good at what he does and he enjoys it and that he's lost every fight that he has put on stage and screen (sorry hun, had to put that in *snicker*), but at least I get a few hours with him on the weekend. I've been told many times that I could get involved as well, but I tend to like to be behind the scenes--although depending on what is in front, I'll do it--and that normally doesn't happen for me. Oh well, at least the show only runs certain days until September.

But on the good side of things, I made it through the 4th of July without much of a scratch. Jakob was able to get another rapier to add to our collection and he was able to write a bit more on a script that he and I are working on. I was able to write a few more chapters and ideas in my book, had good exercise walking the 2+ miles of the parade, seeing a few friends which I hadn't seen in a long time, and hanging out with some good friends and having good conversations afterwards. I'll post some pictures from our little family get together later--if I can get them off my camera; I really need to find my card reader . . . . .