Changes

Life is full of changes. Everyone knows that. It still hits you hard when that change has to happen yet you need to keep up pretenses that it hasn't and just get through the day until you can be alone and actually process what happened.

Yeah, you can guess it's been happening to me lately. Especially this morning. I received a phone call from a long time "friend" telling me that we need to cut each other out of our lives.

I get it. People move on. You may grow tired of being around certain people or you may just not have room in your life for them anymore. They may be toxic or weighing you down and you need to release them in order to move forward; but it doesn't make it any easier.

I have known this person for over 10 years. They have been there in times of joy and sorrow, laughing and crying with me along the way. We've shared secrets and events, spanned the globe at points, yet all it takes is one person telling them that "I am not a person to have in their life". Yeah, that's the wording that caught me off guard.

I loved this person at one point. They will always have a place in my heart, but apparently not in my life anymore.

Change hurts and moving past it is hard. It'll take some time. I'll have to chat with Jakob and see if he can help me understand a few things. He's good like that. =)