After last Friday's post, I realized I was being a bit harsh, but it all ended well. I ended up doing the train that I liked and what fit the design of the poorly made dress and my friend was happy with the outcome. We'll see how everything pulls together on Saturday (if I can make it, but according to the schedule I should be able to).
Okay, this next part is going to get personal, so don't read on if you're not interested. Lately I've been noticing that most of my clothing isn't fitting the way it used to. I used to have a very hard time gaining and maintaining my weight when I was in my teens. Perhaps it was because of how active I was, but I ate a ton and my diet was very healthy. Then I got married, and I did the stupidest thing I could have ever done: I got on birth control pills. Up until then I hadn't been and I liked the way that my body looked (believe it or not). But about a month before I got married I got on those pills and everything changed. All of a sudden food didn't seem to digest the same and I noticed changes in my figure that--to this day--I hate! I got "hips". Yes, the artificial hormones in those pills did more than what they are supposed to do and they really destroyed my system. I gained 30 pounds within the first 6 months and I'm still fighting to take them off. After almost 2 years of taking those things, I decided that I needed to get off them. They completely changed my moods and my lifestyle--not in a good way. So it's been a little over 3 years now that I'm not on them and I'm still feeling the effects of them. The weight just doesn't come off! And it keeps piling on more and more and more. That may have something to do with my activity level at the moment, but after talking with my doc about it, he thinks that it may be some "residual changes made by the pills to my natural hormones". Yeah, not happy.
So we're buying a treadmill and I'm starting to dance again--the dancing part is making me a bit happier. I actually had a dance audition Friday evening (I think I did really good for not dancing in over 2 years) and I felt so much emotion from the experience that on my way home, I started crying. I'm not a crier. I'm really not, but this time it was interesting. I don't know where those tears came from. I was able to control everything by the time I got home, but Jakob noticed that my mood was different, "a good different" was how he described it. Now if I can only start clogging again, I'll be fantastic. Got to look into that. But the treadmill thing is something that Jakob and I have been thinking about since the beginning of the year. We were going to buy one with the tax return but since that piddled out, we're saving up a bit and hopefully we'll have one by the beginning to middle of May. I'm still wondering if it wouldn't be better just to get a gym membership and go that direction, but I guess the consensus is that nether of us feel comfortable going to the gym alone and our schedules don't always match so having stuff like that at home makes it a bit better.
I'll hopefully be able to keep a progress bar or something on the side here, just to keep me motivated. And if anyone needs a workout buddy and they're around here, let me know! Maybe that'll get me motivated a bit. =)
6 comments:
Wish we lived closer. I'd be your workout bud. i need to kick the last of my pregnancy weight. I totally understand the frustration of looking in the mirror and seeing clothing not fit like it used to. Good luck! And, keep dancing - you are amazing and brilliant on the dance floor.
Take care, you! You still look great to me! Best of luck in your physical endeavors--I'm sure they'll pay off for you!
The gym route has never worked for me. I'd rather just go outside, but most of the year it's crappy weather, so that doesn't happen. I wish you were closer! I would love a walking partner.
If it helps any, I've always thought you to be slim and beautiful, but the most important thing is how you feel about yourself. I've gained more weight than I should, but with a kid and a job, I have a hard time finding times I can go REALLY exercise without rearranging my entire life every day. I do try to keep my diet healthy, and that helps.
Thanks all. Yeah, it's just motivation at the moment I guess.
@Michelle=Thanks cutie. You are too! It is all about how you feel and being healthy and for my frame, I'm not feeling healthy. That's what bugs me. Perhaps this summer we could go on walks? I don't mind driving up to go on walk-and-talks. =)
@Kiersten=Yeah, I'll get there.
@Melinda=I miss you! We'll make it out for a visit one day!
I am ALL for that! We should plan a day at least once a week.
I honestly haven't noticed any extra weight on you when I've seen you. But we all know our own bodies better than anyone. If anyone knows the frustration of weight gain it is moi! I was once a petite thing like my gals. And I was a dancer like you. It all took a back seat when I became a teacher along with other demands of life. It's true that hormones are such a pain...and a decrease in activity doesn't help, that's for sure. I'm living proof. But you're smart to step up the activity while you're young. It doesn't get easier when you hit menopause...Boohoo. Good luck to you. I think you always look fab!
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