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Well, September has come once again and that means that school has started back up. I'm still instructing at the elementary school--but not by choice, by necessity only. It is interesting how many jobs are available, but how employers aren't hiring. In the last 2 months alone I've applied to 40 jobs and heard back from 25 of them. They've all said about the same thing; either I'm overly qualified for the job so they'd have to pay more or I'm under qualified because I don't have "customer service experience". 1st off, if I'm applying for the job (over qualified or not), apparently I'm okay with the salary so if you think I can do the job then hire me. 2ndly, just because I don't have customer service experience in your specific field, doesn't mean I'm not willing to learn or can't pick it up. I'm still looking around and trying to change the situation, but with so many people out of a job, it isn't helping any. At least I have something, right?

Football season is starting back up and while I'm not a big fan, I go to the games when they're available to me. My mom is President of the Varsity Club again, so that means more tailgates. There is 1 drawback to this year though: I'm missing the first 2 home games because of the show. I'll probably be able to do a little of the tailgate (which makes my mom happy) but I won't be able to see the games. I'm not too disappointed, but it is a family tradition to watch the Utah game and with it being BYU's first home game, that isn't going to work this year.

The show is going . . . well, it's going. There is a part of me that wishes I'd stayed away from the show and just let Jakob do his thing because as it gets closer and closer to the time for the show to open, I'm getting sick of being around that theatre and some of the people there. It just seems that people are starting to get on each others nerves a bit and that the show isn't fun anymore. At least, that is how I'm beginning to feel and I've never felt like this about a show that I'm involved in before. Plus, it seems that some of the things that I've said have come back to bite me. I know this time period and when you are billing the costumes as "authentic", then perhaps they should be around the right time period. Many of the costumes aren't. They are from the late 1700s-1800s and we're dealing with the early 1600s. That may not seem like a big deal to some people, but to those who know clothes, it is a big deal. It is like doing a 1980s show in 1940s style clothing, it just doesn't work. I overheard one of the costume people say rather demeaningly "but what does she know about clothes. . . " and then I just walked away so I didn't hear anything else (but I did hear my name at the beginning of the conversation, so I assume they were talking about me). But then again, I was asked to do props so at least I'm trying to make sure that the props are correct. On another note, I was glancing at their mock up playbill and I noticed that my name was missing as dance choreographer and they had shortened my last name. Uhh, NO! And to top it off, I haven't felt truly happy for about 2 months. This is not something I would wish on anyone. I laugh a little bit and I tend to "fake" happiness for others because it makes them happy, but to be truly honest, I just don't smile when I'm by myself anymore. All I want to do is curl up and go away. Not normal for me.