Ramblings

I was asked the other day why I teach middle school when I am more suited for doing something artistic or performing arts.  I had a deal with my mother when I entered University; she would help me pay for college and all the expenses that come along with it as long as I chose a degree that would give me a good paycheck by the end of the month.  I could do anything else that I wanted and she would help support me in that but I needed to be able to support myself after leaving University.  So I chose teaching.  I get a monthly paycheck, I have weekends and holidays off, I get a Thanksgiving break, Winter Holiday break, and a summer break and I'm done by 3:30pm usually every day.  Then I could come home and do what I wanted to after that. Yes, the trade off is that I have to deal with certain parents and with all the politics that come with teaching, but at the moment I'm willing to work with that.  While I'm still trying to build my business so one day I won't have to teach, at least I don't have much going on after that.

Fabric, trims, and patterns are like an addiction to me.  Yep, I'm addicted to fabric.  If I go into a fabric store (or any store that has fabric for sale) I ultimately end up getting something.  A pattern, some ribbon, trim, or 25 pounds of fabric (like I did a while ago), but I've never paid full price for any of it.  I had saved up a little bit from selling another costume and sent out to "just glance around" (yeah right) and ended up coming home paying $145 for fabric and patterns.  But the kicker for me--and this is where my high comes from--is that I saved over $985 on everything.  Granted I would never pay full price for things like that, but still, it is a great high to have.  Unfortunately now I need to go out and buy a few more bins to house it all.  I hate having fabric piled on the floor but that is where they are residing at the moment; along with 3 bags of ribbon/trims/lace, and another bag full of thread cones (because you can never have too many colors of thread and I always buy 5 cones--4 for the serger and 1 for the machine).

I don't mind not having kids.  I can come and go as I please.  I'm not dependent on another schedule.  I'm really not tied down.  Sorry to those of you who have kids and think I'm being judgmental, I'm trying not to be.  I just don't think it is the right thing for me to be doing.  I really can't see myself as a mother.  I enjoy being around kids (past a certain age), I'm really not a fan of babies, but I like the fact that if something happens or if the kid starts to throw a hissy fit I can always pass the child back to the parents (I think that is why grandparents enjoying their grand-kids).  Can I see myself having kids?  Probably not, but feelings can change.

Needs vs wants.  Yes, even I continue to struggle with that.  I know the difference, but I'm pretty good at convincing myself otherwise.  I would like a new TV.  Do I need one?  Not necessarily, but it would be nice to have.  I want a treadmill (that is one that I'm fighting with myself at the moment over).  Yeah, I know, I'm pathetic.

I really don't like the fact that if you walk around the malls or almost any store for that matter you hear christmas music playing.  I think that christmas music shouldn't start playing until December 1st.  Call me a scrooge if you'd like, but I get sick of it!  25 days of christmas music should be enough and then if you'd like more, do it on your own personal playlists.

I found out earlier this week that we get BBC America, so I've been catching up on the Doctor Who episodes they play plus a little bit of the Tutors series and a series called Downton Abby.  I really like that series, plus Dame Maggie Smith has some great lines! "Put that in your pipe and smoke it!" (yes, that is actually one of her lines!  So awesome!)