Why so much trouble?

Ugg, it is getting ridiculous to try and move around town. The students are all coming back, meaning that there is more traffic and weird people that don't know how to navigate the streets around campus.

There are times I like summer around here because it tends to get a bit quieter and the streets aren't as crowded (unless there is an event going on), but this summer there were so many people that actually decided to stay in town that there hasn't been that much of a difference in the traffic . . . until now. The town is beginning to fill up again and people are trying to navigate things. I'm trying to navigate around them and make sure that I'm alive and navigating through life isn't exactly what I wanted to be doing right now.

Sorry, that was a really weird transition into trying to navigate through life right now. Yep, that is what I'm trying to do. So many things are going on right now that I have very little control over and trying to make sure that everything is in its place in such a short amount of time is driving me the wrong direction. I guess I'm just going to have to try and take it a couple days at a time until things start to fall into place and move the way I want them to again.

Jakob and I are also trying to figure out what exactly it is we want to do with our futures. I've got this job now, but do I want to stay with it? Jakob is finishing up his teaching license. Do we want to stay with that? Ugg, things are so frustrating.

Not to mention teaching; because I really don't want to think about that at the moment. Yes, I'm in the middle of my day, but it isn't clear to me what it is I am supposed to be doing. I get that I'm supposed to be teaching, but teaching exactly what is what I'm trying to figure out. I have the standards and the programs, but I keep getting the "_______ did it this way" and "________ did that" and I have to keep reminding them that I'm not ________, but I appreciate the fact that they are trying to put me in the right direction.

Sigh, oh well. Back to working with freshman.