In front of the camera?

Okay, so I was asked recently why I don't like being in front of the camera, whether it be film or still. I always give the same answer "I just prefer to be behind controlling what I see" and it seems that that answer isn't good enough any more.

So after some thinking about it and more thinking, I guess I just don't like seeing myself in pictures. I always look awkward. I've never really liked the pictures that I'm in. On occasion I've had a few that actually looked good and those were normally taken by a good photographer (thanks a million Scott!) but I like to be in control of the picture or film rather than be the subject of it. I've been asked by a few people if I've ever considered modeling and I always tell them that no, I don't do pictures, its just not my thing. But recently I've had a few more people ask me to do pictures with them or to be in front of the camera in a film and I keep looking at myself and wondering "what in the world are these people thinking? I have more flaws than an old photograph and they want to capture it on film?" I'm sure my husband would disagree with me on this.

Well, I've been told that one way to cure a phobia is to be exposed to it more, so does that mean that I need to be in front of the camera more? we'll see. . . . . . . .